birthdays

i like feeling special... i am not sure there is anyone in the world who does not love this.

this year.... i kind of felt like my spirit needed to feel a little extra loved and a little extra special

it was a hard birthday this year

not because of age....

not sure why... i think i am maybe worn out... not feeling in my prime...

hard things. loss.

this is going to be a year of growth and embracing...

Mundane

I struggle with the mundane...

like today.

why does it have so much power over me? RE FRAME... why do i LET it have so much power over me?

my sister asked me today do i LOVE my job? is it okay not to LOVE your job but LIKE most of it. Do you need to be living and working in your dream job to be satisfied in your day to day. what if your mundane job could potentially lead to your dream job...

anyways... i like my job... i like the community of my work... i like my pension... i like the kids

i work with a tough group of kids ... but they need the most love and hope in the world.... believe it or not it is not them that i find mundane... it is sometimes the parents and supports who are not willing to try and receive new messages of how to love....

i LOVE being a mom.... although i get irritated...

i LOVE being a wife... although i get irritated

i am on a long road of LOVING ALL of me... although i find it VERY EASY to get irritated

being me - being true - being Jules is what i desire most...

because the ripples of this would reach lengths in my day to day... my marriage... my parenting... and my JOB.

it is the hardest road though... especially when you start re-learning it later in life.

i will embrace me...

You are sublimely, exactly, how you need to be at this moment

intentions

I have intentions... lots of them.... lots of them.  I am learning daily balance and to hold true what intentions trump others.

I intend to not get bogged down by the tiny things around me.

I intend to see the glass half full.

I intend to not try and rescue everybody's feelings but work on my own.

I intend to let go.

I have been reading a lot of little quotes and positive meditations lately. (lacking time to do much more)

This has been sticking with me the most

Let's spend more of our lives in the soulful times

let soak in it. believe in it. be true. be IN it.

our soul is what moves with us through life... what is going to shape my soul and give life to me, my marriage and my family. what is going to breath into my soul so that i feel freedom and refreshment? I need to focus more on me.... be selfishly willing to change.

the last six months have given me a lot to reflect on. with tears. with laughs. with frustration. with peace.

I want the last months not to be lost growth. I also do not to wish to repeat all of them. but want them to shape me.

Let life schoop you up and change you somehow!